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| 06:07pm 03/12/2008 |
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mood:  giggly
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Things are going well. Derek and I are wonderful and couldn't be more happier. Work is going pretty well, I'm going to ask for a promotion soon once I see my supervisor. My friends are amazing and wonderful. There are old friends that are coming out of the woodwork and it's weird. Christmas is just around the corner believe it or not. Downloading tons of music - I'm going to jail for a long time. Watching tons of movies good movies. I'm going to pick up reading some more, and I've began to write in a journal that I'm keeping day by day of me and Derek's relationship. Maybe it'll last all the way through the actual journal - and maybe maybe journals after that. Thats about it.. nothing too new. Cute pictures that I guess I should post. Yeah let me go ahead and update those bad boys.
( i'm a live ) |
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(1 malcontents dismissing nature's process | please slit your own throats.) |
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| And even though my feet are trembling Every word I say comes stumbling |
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| 06:22pm 15/11/2008 |
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mood:  disappointed
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sometimes i question if i have any mental illnesses. i have been counting down the hours to see derek and he just text'd me saying he's staying to work an event and i just started to cry. its not like i haven't seen him, i saw him last night but i had a plan tonight. i had a plan to go out with him and most importantly just spend time with him. i can't get enough of him and it's so silly that i'm even crying. |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| Love sings a song as she sails through the sky. |
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| 09:56am 05/10/2008 |
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music: the avett brothers
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I went to see Chuck Ragan on the Revival Tour last Sunday. It was really good, I enjoyed Austin Lucas and Ben Nichols (of course). I really felt nostalgic while being there for a whole lotta reasons. The time I went to see Atreyu and the Social's roof caved in. Shortly after that I met Bubs. With the music I just remember falling asleep when I was younger to my pop-pop playing the mandolin and banjo. It was really comforting and relaxing that show.
Last night I saw Against Me! at the hob. There was a horrible band from England I believe and I just don't get anything British because people loved that music and I just thought to myself what a cluster fuck of music and words. After that it was Ted Leo and the Pharmacists and they were a lot better and then Against Me! played. I also like them so much better live then I do on their cds. After that went to eat at the Ale House - I don't understand why people enjoy that place. I mean I guess because they serve cheap booze but ehh that doesn't help me with food. :)
I'm going to enjoy my day off with some Avett Brothers and Eagles Football. |
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(4 malcontents dismissing nature's process | please slit your own throats.) |
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| from toot toot! to choooo choooo |
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| 08:51am 20/09/2008 |
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mood:  anxious music: broken strings .: carry on
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last night we had a staff meeting and dallas talked about the summer and back to basic type things. at the end of the meeting all the leads had to say something and when i got done my speech he was like ashley ashley stand up you're still not done you have to tell them. i'm like tell them what, then it clicked. i had to tell all my little babies that i was leaving bluto's. i was getting a little teary eyed (yes i take my job way to seriously) and i'm sure other people got teary eyed as well but yeah it was kinda crappy.
i'll be heading over to the high in the sky suess trolley train ride. there's some challenges over there and that why i'm heading over there to fix them. i'm going over specifically for challenges. it's good to know that my supervisor has the faith in me that i can do that because believe me, i don't have any faith in myself.
( the ride )
speaking of supervisor - dallas told me yesterday personally that he is proud of me, of everything that i have accomplished and he's also extremely sad to see me go because he knows that i've done so much not only for the team, but for the attraction and for him as well. i give my all when it comes to work. it's not where i want to be the rest of my life but for right now its my job and i don't know how to give 50% or 80% of something. so i'm becoming a sneetch. |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| who's your god now? |
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| 10:55pm 06/09/2008 |
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mood:  chipper music: the mars volta
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Rock the Universe. Those people are not 'christian' by any means. Today at work I had multiple complaints about horseplay in the queue not only about the kids but from the adults as well. We had to kick several people off the ride, plus, these people are rude as all hell. God hates you. Just because you wear a cross, listen to shitty christian music, and praise someone who is as real as the easter bunny and santa claus, doesn't make you a better person than me.
In the real world, you still have to obey rules of the attraction which is no standing up on the ride, no horseplay, and you have to wear your shirt and shoes. This is obviously for your safety. I could care less if you fall out of a moving ride vehicle, get sucked into our pumps, and hell even drown because you can't swim in 200,000 gallons of water a minute. But because I need my job and Universal has to have a good record when it comes to safety I have to install these rules at my attraction.
It's my 10 commandments along with the company's. deal with it.
JESUS!
discuss. |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| the irony is that you totally suck |
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| 09:04am 02/09/2008 |
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mood: anxious music: the suicide file.
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today is the stupid lead pool interview (again) after thinking about it. i really don't want to leave bluto's, i never hated it in the first place. but i really feel like i'm being forced to leave. its sad but i put so much investment into that attraction and the day that i do leave will feel like a pretty bad break up. i'm hoping to get catfish, we shall see. i'm really afraid that if i leave bluto's that place is going to fall apart. i'm the last leg that it's standing on and if i leave the whole thing is going to collapse and the team members are going to cause anarchy.
thank the lord its september, which means new shows on tv and the fall tv season begins. tomorrow night starts with america's next top model, sunday is true blood. pretty stoked on that. its the little things.
wednesday i'm suppose to hang out with some friends, i really need to make it to the bank early to get rent out and i'd love to get my eyebrows done but that i don't think is going to happen. i'm pretty excited about this actually, i'm pretty giddy.
i've been biking to work and i've noticed a difference in my strength as well as my agility. i've been eating better except last night i had some pizza, they were small pieces though.
i decided to buy myself something. i'm pretty excited. they are cigarette holders, but used for like I.D's and cards and such and they can even fit an ipod nano :) which i soon will have.
( one is NWS )
as you can see nothing too exciting going on in my life.
friends, work, call of duty, bully, rita's, friends, work.
* i need to send money out for call of duty. |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| gift for meldody |
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| 07:22am 01/09/2008 |
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mood: cheerful music: the avett brothers
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And, I just want me life to be true
Yeah, and I just want me heart to be true
Yeah, and I just want my words to be true
I want my soul to feel brand brand new
Like a fresh coat of paint
We can make it anything but blue
Anything but blue |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| don't hold me back. |
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| 11:12pm 21/08/2008 |
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mood:  loved music: eric hutchinson
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rebecca sykes - what would i do without that girl? i'm probably sink to the bottom of the ocean, she's pretty much my life vest. she did the most incredible thing for me and i would have never thought that anyone would do something like that for me, especially at work.
lately i've been discouraged with work because of this stupid lead crap, and i'm going through separation anxiety because all my friends and other leads are leaving me. i feel like such a loser for not doing well at the interview and i don't get to go anywhere cool like they are. well rebecca was talking to mike (my old supervisor) about me and how i have been down on myself and just basically not myself. so rebecca asked mike to sit down and talk with me on saturday when i'm at work to give me the encouragement that i need and the self esteem boost that i need to get me on track to being the ashley that i am. i would have never thought of asking mike or any other supervisor for that matter to talk to me about it. he's going to proof read my profile sheet and give me extra advice.
i'm really touched that she could do for me.
and she really thought i was going to be mad at her.
i love that girl and i'm so thankful that she's in my life.
my dad sent me a guardian angel.
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| I was Brooklyn broke but now I'm upstate rich |
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| 10:00am 15/08/2008 |
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mood:  peaceful music: straylight run
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i've been working my tail off - there's one more day closing at 11:30 for me which makes me super excited. i've been kicking major ass at work which making great decisions and making great counts. i feel so untouchable when i'm at work. its kinda sad that summer is over and the next crazy time will be october for halloween horror nights. :)
sunday i'm getting my hair cut - nothing dramatic but how many times do i say that i come back with all my hair chopped off. but in all seriousness i'm just going for a trim and try to make my hair semi even with its self.
today amber and i are going to finish up lego indiana jones. we're at 80% done right now so all we have to do is get the rest of the mailboxes and the silly treasure chests. after that i'm going to move onto bully. i'm going to trade in lego when i'm done along with thrillville. i would like to get the lego batman, which is a given then viva pinata 2 and the olympics game and there's another one but i forgot what it was. :) it was something corny i'm sure.
speaking of olympics - just like any other nerd i have been watching them whenever i can. its actually on right now in the back ground. there has been hours of screaming at the television for wins and tons of boo's for close calls and loses. when i was young i really wanted to go to the olympics for diving/gymnastics. and like everything in life, i quit. well that wasn't in my control anyways my parents couldn't afford it anymore. but yeah it'll be sad to see the closing ceremonies and know that i'll be 27 when the next olympics rolls around. :( |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| so i was thinking.. |
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| 10:51pm 14/08/2008 |
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mood:  irritated music: dallas green
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Now you still speak of day old hate though your whole world has gone up into flames and isn't it great to find that you're really worth nothing? how safe it is to feel safe |
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(please slit your own throats.) |
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| doctor doom was a man of science and doesn't believe in jesus so why the fuck do you? |
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| 09:34am 07/08/2008 |
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mood:  geeky music: off my chest .: carry on
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i love how people do things to spite me, as if i cared. i know how people really are, one minute they say they hate someone and the next they are like bff's. i guess i have no room to talk however, i feel like i clarify my reasons a little bit more. whatever that means.
only a week left of summer, thank the lord. i don't know how much more i could take at work. hello 8 o'clock closings and then two weeks after that it'll be 6 o'clock and hopefully then i'll be out of bluto's and at a different attraction, i really want to go with natiesha to cat. i'm going to miss that girl the most out of miguel and rebecca which is strange but natiesha is my rock. i really wouldn't know what to do without her sometimes.
my life lately has been enjoyable. because i'm a jealous person i've been jealous over the silliest things lately. people getting engaged and people having babies. i want those things so bad. vince and i have been looking at rings and such which makes it a reality for the most part, i just really need to be patient. and i've already made the decision that if/when i get pregnant i will post pictures of me and my prego belly - however i will not post my baby's pictures online. unless someone wants to pay me millions upon millions of dollars to post my mediocre baby pictures and no i will not donate it to charity.
so you think you can dance is totally over as of tonight. totally bums me out that chelsie isn't in the top 4 however, i am satisfied that katee, joshua, and twitch are there. courtney give me a break she's nothing special. that should be where chelsie is. i think i want katee to take it all. and that brings me to my next task - i'm going to take more technique classes so i can have the foundation i need for auditions. and my song that i will be auditioning to will be this woman's work by kate bush. lets cross our fingers.
amber is coming home today which is nice because i miss her terribly when shes gone and we're gonna sit and play lego indiana jones and tear it up. :) we're half way done with the game which makes me pretty excited. oh and when i went to game stop the other day i finally found WARIO TOUCHED! which i have been looking for for like 2 years and i finally found it. vince has been searching too and it was nice that we both saw it together. so now all i have to do is charge my ds and we should be good to go :) i would like to start playing my ds a little bit more my poor animal crossing town. i haven't played that in like almost a year. :( |
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| i like it in the city when the air is so thick. |
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| 05:41pm 21/07/2008 |
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mood: cheerful music: chopin
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i've been watching smart people and its on my top 5 new movies. i'm pretty attached to it. next on the list should be the tracy fragments. it looked good but got horrible ratings but i don't go by other people's opinions.
i'm seeing the dark knight on wednesday in IMAX after going to Elephant Bar. i haven't gone yet simply because i'm working all the time and so is vince and our schedules conflict but its all good. just because people see it early doesn't effect my outlook on it. i've been a batman fan since i was like 6 when my dad showed me all his old comic books so all these band wagon jumpers can rant and rave about the movie all they want. then getting the lego batman game for the xbox is next in september.
only a couple more days until my birthday. its pretty weird that i'm turning 23. its actually really insane. my birthdays have come and gone and its so weird to know that i'm almost a quarter of a century old. 7 birthday have come and gone without my dad. I'm hoping to get the majority of stuff off my birthday list since its a small list. i guess i could be abnoxious and post pictures of the stuff i want..
( birthday list )
i should really go to bed because i have to leave for work at 7:30am. i've called off work the past two days simply because my body hasn't felt right. damn arthritis/seizures. i love life, and most importantly getting older. pretty soon i'll be in a wheelchair.
i downloaded the first season of OZ. i'm so pumped. i love that hbo series, better than the sopranos and maybe even big love. nothing will be better than six feet under though. |
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| We break into towns worth of houses |
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| 10:26pm 17/07/2008 |
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mood:  stressed
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today i had my interview to transfer to another attraction. it was beyond stressful. it was a group interview and all the people that were interviewing were on one side and all the elite managers were on the other side staring us down. any time either one of us opened our mouths - the would write on pieces of paper. oh my lord. it was so scary. thank god i had my fellow bluto leads standing by my side or else i don't think i could have done this process without them.
it was really nice to see our supervisor come in on his day off and wish us luck. that was really nice of him and it was nice to joke around and let down our hair and try to be comfortable atleast until we went into the room and sat down. i'm still pretty stressed about it.
now i'm sitting in the living room watching
yup. |
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| please don't let me float too high |
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| 07:38am 08/07/2008 |
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mood:  accomplished music: ...best in mexico :. he is legend
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working a millions hours at work is paying off. yesterday i opened the attraction and my team and i kicked ass at work. my god, it felt so good. its feels good owning the other attractions and supervisors telling me that we embarrass certain attractions not only day by day but by hour by hour. :) mwahaha. i love it. we broke an all time capacity record. we were kicking major ass, then we had to go into a white and it screwed us all up but we quickly gained that back after we came back operational.
today i work a short shift today, thank god. these 10 hour days for 6 days is kicking my butt. i plan on going swimming after work which makes me really excited. i haven't been swimming in about a week, its so weird. i'll have to make up for lost time once i actually get in the water, do some extra laps and what not.
hopefully i have another great day of counts. its so addicting and motivational.
GO PURPLE PARROTS!! |
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